While putting down her body to rest on bed, she reminisces memories from the past, contemplating the times when she used to live a contented life. When everything was normal back then. She used to have heaps of friends with whom she spent most of her time guffawing. She was a girl with outgoing personality. Light-hearted, is what she was known for. She had everything a girl could wish for. Her life was as sweet as a cupcake. “Nothing could ever possibly go wrong”, she had said to herself while living her best days in the jiffy.
But, not always, you get what you wish for, God has some other plans for you. For you, to absorb it, for you, to live with it, for you to deal with it. A minute where you are overwhelmed with blessings in your life becomes the one where everything takes a turn for the unexpected.
There was a time when she used to soar with open wings anytime and anywhere. But now, she can’t spread the same wings even if she wants to, because time doesn’t stay the same. And now, she has changed so much, that sometimes she is misunderstood. The girl with an extroverted personality has now turned into an introvert. She badly wants to be the girl who she used to be once, a long time ago. She wants to hang out with her friends, be in love with somebody, and make new friends. But her mind and the circumstances that life has created for her won’t let her change. Instead she finds herself seated at a corner, gazing into emptiness while tears flow down her cheeks. She doesn’t like being at home, because the walls keep taking her back to a time that reminds her how messed up her life is. She wishes to go far away from her troubled life, where only for once, she could be free from all the uncertainties. Most of the time, she occupies herself by doing what she loves. Every now and then, she reads a book, listens to music or writes something. But often she is nowhere to be found.
Cried many times, prayed many times, and hopes everyday that one day this troubled time will pass out of sight. Because she believes in God, and she knows whatever is happening or has happened so far, is for a good cause, she knows how to remain positive and stay strong. She is proud of the woman she is today. Thanks to herself.